Movember

In so many bids of change
I'm faced with this day

And I promised myself
Never to feel that way
And cried because I cried

I would never have done that to u
But you've taught me a lesson

My plans were to make it different
To revitalize these days to forget
But its not the days

There is no such thing as time
Only life
And I've learned the constant:
Change

I've ran so far
And forgot to look back
Coldly turning a blind eye
You didn't exist
Moving forward...or living obliviously?

I tried ambitiously to hate you
And I was winning
An aimless battle I've won
Yet not victorious?

As this day creeps closer
I'm reminded of what was

And there is nothing
the apocalypse didn't hear your demands
Neither did Zues

I'm happy
But enough, I'm whole again
I'm ready to stand firm with the Reeper
I won't run, I don't have to
And this will call my victory

Ill learn to trust
And love ill have to lend
Holding my head high
Brevity be my friend

I find source in my own to forgive
And map solutions instead of forget

Like the dusk
Drowning into the sea
I have battled to swim above the waters
Breaking waves and holding onto light
Which inevitably slips into the dark

I discover more than I anticipate
Movember
You bring me hope

When a new dawn reveals itself
Ascending into the heavens
I'm radiating life and conform to nature

Dancing in the limits
My love is endless and warm

I slip into night and play in the dark
And once again
Ill shine for someone and bring hope
To someone special

And I will not thank you
And I will not apologize
But I will smile
Coz I've lost you but I've gained myself
A prize you didn't see

You hurt me so deep
Undeserving, I gave you everything
My heart on a silver platter
A rarity I gave you
It was yours to keep

But Movember will be detoxed
A feint story about how I move forward

Last of the drops I held onto
Dripping into the ocean
Engaged into a vastness of me

I feel the sunshine gleaming
At last
It happened
I am free