Date night

Parallel to your gaze
Between candle fire and my shadow
In full view of your emphasized persona
I'm present as a neutral pawn

Profiling your hungry intentions...
Leaking answers with dripping desire
Arising tempting challenges
Addressing the dark beats of vibrations within me

Handing over yourself:
Reading
I find the keys
Questions,
Reeling you in
Sport fishing indirectly proportioned to your irrelevant answers

If you knew me:
You'd know age is nothing but existence
Taunt me and unleash an estrangement...estrangement? Too sweet a word.
Taunt me and prepare for blazing seats with the devil
Not in rage, nor violence
In quality

And I know:
What I want
What I have to give
I know pain, I know love
I know 'you' and I'm proficient in 'me'

My real-gentle-raw will not coil you in possibilities
in offerings my nature will be equivalent

In magnitudes of ambition
I have mastered the art of attaining my sights with
Pleasure and fascination
And therell be no room for plausible ventures as my saturnine governed ruler will cut any venture short challenged with pique
And you will be real, or you may find another table

In abundance of opportunities
I sift out the opportunity rich in sustenance

Psuedo Quality

Your icey eyes froze my heart
Your cold voice shut out the light

But this I promise you
I will forget
Passively, gently

You will receive an equal response
Ill drown you in my calms
Pass u a casual friendly glance
While you stare

blinded by pseudo kindness
"I can almost imagine your blindness
As I watch and wait
For the chance
To suddenly- cruelly- make you know
How easy it was to let you go"

Movember

In so many bids of change
I'm faced with this day

And I promised myself
Never to feel that way
And cried because I cried

I would never have done that to u
But you've taught me a lesson

My plans were to make it different
To revitalize these days to forget
But its not the days

There is no such thing as time
Only life
And I've learned the constant:
Change

I've ran so far
And forgot to look back
Coldly turning a blind eye
You didn't exist
Moving forward...or living obliviously?

I tried ambitiously to hate you
And I was winning
An aimless battle I've won
Yet not victorious?

As this day creeps closer
I'm reminded of what was

And there is nothing
the apocalypse didn't hear your demands
Neither did Zues

I'm happy
But enough, I'm whole again
I'm ready to stand firm with the Reeper
I won't run, I don't have to
And this will call my victory

Ill learn to trust
And love ill have to lend
Holding my head high
Brevity be my friend

I find source in my own to forgive
And map solutions instead of forget

Like the dusk
Drowning into the sea
I have battled to swim above the waters
Breaking waves and holding onto light
Which inevitably slips into the dark

I discover more than I anticipate
Movember
You bring me hope

When a new dawn reveals itself
Ascending into the heavens
I'm radiating life and conform to nature

Dancing in the limits
My love is endless and warm

I slip into night and play in the dark
And once again
Ill shine for someone and bring hope
To someone special

And I will not thank you
And I will not apologize
But I will smile
Coz I've lost you but I've gained myself
A prize you didn't see

You hurt me so deep
Undeserving, I gave you everything
My heart on a silver platter
A rarity I gave you
It was yours to keep

But Movember will be detoxed
A feint story about how I move forward

Last of the drops I held onto
Dripping into the ocean
Engaged into a vastness of me

I feel the sunshine gleaming
At last
It happened
I am free