Loves Tale

I lust...
But i know my book
And doomed by the greed of Macbeth
I fear passion and ambition

I tiptoe into this realm with curiosity
but stumble hopelessly by mans flaws
My quaking heart beats

Rushing to shelter
In a tormented state
Breaking out in a sweat
Afraid, vulnerable...

My head tells me to bare caution
Echoes of my fathers rank chasing after me
Putting my value in a showroom
Opening my spirit to possible sacrilege
Revealing my world

I love...
But there is no book
And doomed by the wonderful mysteries of the heart
I fear

Crouching in my shelter with my eyes closed
Thunder raoring from my chest
Darkened by the unknown
Misty paths that show nothing but the present

I see...
But i am blind
And doomed by love
I take your hand...

Date night

Parallel to your gaze
Between candle fire and my shadow
In full view of your emphasized persona
I'm present as a neutral pawn

Profiling your hungry intentions...
Leaking answers with dripping desire
Arising tempting challenges
Addressing the dark beats of vibrations within me

Handing over yourself:
Reading
I find the keys
Questions,
Reeling you in
Sport fishing indirectly proportioned to your irrelevant answers

If you knew me:
You'd know age is nothing but existence
Taunt me and unleash an estrangement...estrangement? Too sweet a word.
Taunt me and prepare for blazing seats with the devil
Not in rage, nor violence
In quality

And I know:
What I want
What I have to give
I know pain, I know love
I know 'you' and I'm proficient in 'me'

My real-gentle-raw will not coil you in possibilities
in offerings my nature will be equivalent

In magnitudes of ambition
I have mastered the art of attaining my sights with
Pleasure and fascination
And therell be no room for plausible ventures as my saturnine governed ruler will cut any venture short challenged with pique
And you will be real, or you may find another table

In abundance of opportunities
I sift out the opportunity rich in sustenance

Psuedo Quality

Your icey eyes froze my heart
Your cold voice shut out the light

But this I promise you
I will forget
Passively, gently

You will receive an equal response
Ill drown you in my calms
Pass u a casual friendly glance
While you stare

blinded by pseudo kindness
"I can almost imagine your blindness
As I watch and wait
For the chance
To suddenly- cruelly- make you know
How easy it was to let you go"

Movember

In so many bids of change
I'm faced with this day

And I promised myself
Never to feel that way
And cried because I cried

I would never have done that to u
But you've taught me a lesson

My plans were to make it different
To revitalize these days to forget
But its not the days

There is no such thing as time
Only life
And I've learned the constant:
Change

I've ran so far
And forgot to look back
Coldly turning a blind eye
You didn't exist
Moving forward...or living obliviously?

I tried ambitiously to hate you
And I was winning
An aimless battle I've won
Yet not victorious?

As this day creeps closer
I'm reminded of what was

And there is nothing
the apocalypse didn't hear your demands
Neither did Zues

I'm happy
But enough, I'm whole again
I'm ready to stand firm with the Reeper
I won't run, I don't have to
And this will call my victory

Ill learn to trust
And love ill have to lend
Holding my head high
Brevity be my friend

I find source in my own to forgive
And map solutions instead of forget

Like the dusk
Drowning into the sea
I have battled to swim above the waters
Breaking waves and holding onto light
Which inevitably slips into the dark

I discover more than I anticipate
Movember
You bring me hope

When a new dawn reveals itself
Ascending into the heavens
I'm radiating life and conform to nature

Dancing in the limits
My love is endless and warm

I slip into night and play in the dark
And once again
Ill shine for someone and bring hope
To someone special

And I will not thank you
And I will not apologize
But I will smile
Coz I've lost you but I've gained myself
A prize you didn't see

You hurt me so deep
Undeserving, I gave you everything
My heart on a silver platter
A rarity I gave you
It was yours to keep

But Movember will be detoxed
A feint story about how I move forward

Last of the drops I held onto
Dripping into the ocean
Engaged into a vastness of me

I feel the sunshine gleaming
At last
It happened
I am free

Ripples

I feel the change...

Like wind
Unable to be seen
But felt

Either causing disarray
Or jovially playing in your hair

Do we have this choice?

I feel 'change'
Unaware of its nature
Unaware of its direction

Governed by vibration
Which could combust into flames
I learn to gentle this nature
I'm the monarch of my own

If you're afraid to enter
I am comfortable alone

I have nothing to lose but tears
Everything else will still be in place
My heart is loyal
My eyes are pure
I have that space

In magnitudes of value
I know my worth

Reflections of who I am:
I go deep
Dark
Vast
Intense
And I know this territory

I see every path as a journey
Connections in an interweb
Carefully locking in and expanding

we meet passers-by along the way
I choose never to trample on them as steps, but instead to use the experience as a step towards triumph

Its not about questions nor answers
Sometimes the lesson wasn't meant for us
But we had the right questions and they needed to find the answer

I feel the change
Unaware of its nature
Unaware of its direction

But I'm dancing in the wind
Coz I choose you
Everytime

Débutante

Walking into your eyes
I see...

An inside story
Dark, deep and waiting

A series of abated breaths
Or tributes of glory?

Here's my conviction
Spilled in caffeine
Innocently addictive
Or devilishly calling on into the dark

And I follow...
Because I want in

Unexpected, a guest
Blindly falling about

Following the sounds of ur beating chest
Touring this vastness
A falter in the sound

Have u been throwing ur heart around loosely? Is this why you're not giving it away so easily, And staying in the 'safe' territory?

...Yet we say we're lonely
Eventhough surrounded by beats of life
But when we build walls instead of bridges...

The knocks on the chest are shielded
Misconstrued and unanswered

So this is what I propose:

Let me carry from your ellipses
Reading the words into my mind
Not revealing but healing

Allow me to submit to you

Softly succumb to dependence
Give you my heart


Allow me to contest to your debris
It may put up its fists
I'm going to the end of the sea
And this is only the start

I'm risking it all
To have a moment with you
It'll be worth the fee

Competitive by nature
I view you as gold
My soldier tiers are on
I'm risking it all coz my heart is sold

Close your eyes let me touch your skin
Like osmosis
You will feel the authenticity
And take me in

Once its there it will always be around
Gently taking down those bricks in ur wall
I will build your bridge as they lightly fall down

For a chance to be with you
The risk is worth it all

A shot at loving you is the quality
I'd skip straight to the fall
But even if I'm faced to the depths of eternity
I'd sapiently give it a brawl.

Red Lipped Allurance

Submit yourself to me...
Endear my lust

Let me torch your soul
Revved up
Robust

Allow me to seduce you
Tease you from head to toe
you will encompass my eurythmy
blow by blow...

Breathe me in as i take you there
See every cloud
Heavenly creatures
the devils lair

Surrender yourself
and unleash your chains
that contain the desires
Amplify colour all thats bane

Give yourself to me...

The cage of plateau awaits
unlock the gates
This is your play house
i am your fate

I am known as the lady in red
The devils tool
soon to be tied to your bed

Welcome...